Take Care

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again.
I will be there, I will be there.
Love, your love
Just shouldn’t be thrown away.
If we’d go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love

Dear ………….,

Hope this finds you in good spirits, and in a good mood, so you won’t crumple this up as soon as you see my name. Twelve calls and you didn’t pick up even once. Okay, it’s all my fault. My ignorance, my foolishness, my supreme bloated ego.

I realise I might have apperared irritating to you, recently. Okay, a lot irritating. I wouldn’t blame you. I admit, you were right to feel so. Its just because I wanted you all to myself.  I couldn’t stand you drifting away from me. You couldn’t realise that? You could’ve reacted differently to my actions. You could have tried to change yourself, instead of asking me to change and wanting me to be the same old person that I used to be.

Maybe I wasn’t being too open with what I wanted. But you could have tried. At least tried, to decipher what I was trying to imply, why I was breaking down, why I was changing more and more with each passing day, from the guy I used to be.

Ok, in the end, I don’t blame you. It’s all been my fault. My expectations from you were just different from yours. And I’m sure I will move on in life, someday, like you have already. And I wonder how I would think about this at that stage.

Remember the first day we actually met? I never used to believe in co-incidences till that day. Hmm, what a day! Its still fresh in my memory and I’m sure it was one of the best days of my whole life.

I know its all too late to be reflecting upon it now. It is not my intention that you should read this and come running back to me, hug and cry and forget all that has happened between us. I just wanted to convey this out to you, to let know what I feel. And to give you one last memoir of me that you can look at, when you ever, if ever do happen to think of me. I’m quite positive you might have already cleared all traces of me from your life, and I have no reason to believe this wouldn’t go straight onto your waste bin. But still, I just wanted to do this.

Thanks for taking your time reading this. Just want to let you know that I would always be there for you. Have an awesome life, wherever and however you are. Take care.

If we’d go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, Ive hurt your pride, and I know
What you’ve been through
You should give me a chance
This cant be the end
Im still loving you

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No, I’m not suffering from any sorta breakdown. Just plain Fiction.

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Afterglow

The walk on the railway tracks,
By the river as our laughter cracks..

As the sun dips into the waters,
During the dusky hours..

Dark waters flow by,
Under the moon we lie..

A word or two, but often silence talks,
Barefoot on little pieces of rocks..

As the evening clouds turn red,
A lone bird flies with a crumb of bread..

Two pairs of eyes smile,
Two hands held, for miles..

Some leisure hours by the bustle of the day,
Some evenings Some moonlit skies..

A smile with a thought,
In one corner lies..

Tagged!

What better way to end a tiring office day than at the blog! 🙂

Hmm. I’ve been tagged by Rahul, and the rules are:

RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent

RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3
Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this.

Cool.. Here they go..!

Asked someone to marry you? Innocent

Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent <Yuck>

Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent <Yeah right! Leave the table and bar, not even danced..! 😀 >

Ever told a lie? Guilty 🙂

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty <Guilty^100>

Kissed a picture? Innocent

Slept in until 5 PM? Innocent

Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty 😀

Held a snake? Innocent

Been suspended from school? Innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent

Stolen from a store? Innocent

Been fired from a job? Innocent

Done something you regret? Guilty <Very guilty>

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent

Kissed in the rain? Innocent <Wish I were guilty 😀 >

Sat on a roof top? Guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Guilty

Sang in the shower? Guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent

Shaved your head? Innocent <Gotten my head shaved? Guilty>

Had a boxing membership? Innocent

Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry? Guilty

Been in a band? Innocent

Shot a gun? Guilty

Donated Blood? Innocent

Eaten alligator meat? Innocent

Eaten cheesecake? Innocent

Still love someone you shouldn’t? Guilty

Have/had a tattoo? Guilty

Liked someone, but will never tell who? Innocent

Been too honest? Guilty

Ruined a surprise? Guilty

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterwards? Innocent

Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent

Joined a pageant? Innocent

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty <Well, actually, how do I know if they totally meant it?>

Had communication with your ex? Innocent

Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Innocent

Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty

Now.. Job done.. Fun.. Well, my turn now. Lets see. I hereby tag Nikhil,
Whats in a Name?!, Professional Freak, Lone Striker and Athira.. Good luck ppl!! 😉 Enjoy!!! And the tag is open to all my friends who dont blog.  Please go ahead in the Comments section, ppl.. Or just start a blog 😉

And Happy Onam 🙂 Have fun doing tax audits having Ona Sadya folks!

Final Destination – I

Me: “What? CA Final results are out? Very low pass percentage? Shit.”

Friend: “Yea, super bad. Why cant the institute be more liberal?! So many deserving students have not cleared.”

Me: “Hmm. Isn’t that what makes the whole course so scary? Oh wait. I forgot articleship.”

Friend: “Hehe. Yeah. Anyway how’s your studies going?”

Me: “Well, coming to think of it, its been seven months of studi-able time (PCC results were out in Jan) wasted away successfully by me so far. And considering my laziness, it doesn’t certainly look like it will end with seven months of wastage.”

Friend: “What, you tryin’ta say you haven’t started studying yet? Come on nerd. Stop kidding.”

Me: “……………………………………………”

Friend: “Ok ok. So why haven’t you started yet? You know final is not like PCC. There’s just way too much portion to be covered, you see.”

Me: “Wait. Are you my dad?”

Friend: “Hehe. I was just telling.”

Me: “Hmm. Damn. Truth hurts. Anyway, I guess I’ll start with something today.” 🙂

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God, so many books.  This is too bad. Looks like I’ll take a month to by-heart the names of the subjects even. And which group each subject belongs to, thats even harder to by-heart. Well, let me pick out one book at random and start. (One advantage of not knowing a dime at all – all subjects look the same 🙂 )

Now whats this. Information Systems Control and Audit? Hmm. ISCA. Cute. Where on earth do they come up with such weird book cover designs! Anyway lets see.

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Syllabus: Level of knowledge – Advanced knowledge.

B.E.A.utiful. Just two words. Advanced knowledge. Easy to say. Kadavuley..!

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Chapter 1: Information Systems Concepts.

<Yawn ^ 200>

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Oh! <Brainwave:)> I forgot to check out the Preface. Lets see what it says.

  • The basic knowledge about Information Technology gained at PCC level is sought to be built up further through this paper.

Oh devil! Isn’t that paper over yet? God. No wonder Computer Engineers are paid so much.

  • Since the level of knowledge required is ‘Advanced knowledge’, you are advised to make an early start of the study material and give repeated and intensive readings over a period of time.

Oops. Why didn’t I read this earlier. Hmm, this dialog should seriously be given more coverage. Maybe a Bold effect with a 48-size Arial font. No, seriously.

  • Try to develop in yourself some interest in this subject and study it for the purpose of learning.

Note the usages of ‘Try to develop’, ‘Some interest’. So they know the reality. Apram ennathuku intha torture!/Pinne enthinaa ee torture! 😦

  • We would welcome suggestions to make this study material more useful to the students. In case of any doubt, students are welcome to write to the Director of Studies.

Eh? What about the address to send suggestions that they welcome? Ah. Sleek..

Hmm. Such a long preface. Enough for today. Yawn. <Snore>

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P.S: When I find a greyish looking dusty book 3 months later during the yearly cleaning up and excavation of my room, please remind me it was this book. 🙂

I’m not old

“Dude, you seriously are just 20?! You look older than that!” – My neighbor said, the other day. Coming to think of it, I do, at times, feel seriously old. And to an extent, it could be blamed on my course.

The depth of the topics and the never-ending studies required give a fallen-straight-onto-ocean-from-pond feel to a schoolkid who joins CA. Articleship (practical training/office work, a compulsory aspect of CA) doesn’t help in the matter either. Meetings, deadlines, documentation, reports etc were all terms associated with big pot-bellied uncles, until I joined the course. Suddenly, I feel like I’m becoming one among them.

All the fun, the entertainment, the ‘who cares!’ or ‘whatever!’ attitude has just eroded out, and here I am, with either a grave/serious look, or a lost-and-out-of-the-world expression on my face anytime you see me. The formal dress code doesn’t help a dime either. What the heck! Writing about this is just making me feel even older.

Hmm. Maybe I should just forget all this and start a new leisure habit. Maybe I’m taking all this too seriously. Maybe I’m talking bullshit.  Hope you get the point! Anyway, efforts start from today. I am not ready to get old at such a young age.:D

Suggestions welcome..

Bhramaram – My view

I personally had high expectations from this movie. Pre-release publicity like ‘first Mallu road movie’, and ‘director Blessy’s first suspense thriller’, and the ‘best ever acting by Mohanlal’ comment I received from my friends who watched the movie FDFS, could be blamed for the same. In the end, I could say the movie fell short of my expectations.

<Spoilers>

The first half showed good promise, with the suspense being maintained well. Leave out an unconnected sub-plot, the first half was OK. But the second half, sadly, was a letdown for me. Driving a jeep over a mountainous terrain for fifteen minutes is not my idea of a ‘road movie’, or of a ‘suspense thriller’. The director has tried hard to make sure the film runs for two-and-half hours. Maybe tried too hard.

As usual, Lalettan plays his part to perfection. No surprises there. But the supporting cast were not up to the mark. Bhumika had nothing to do, and the ‘doctor’ and Suresh Menon were just about OK. Lakshmi Gopalswami just looked good. The two kids,  Meenakshi and Lachu or Achu or whatever she was called in the movie, were irritating. There were two good songs in the movie.

Overall, it looks like Blessy felt somewhere along that he needed to concentrate on the ‘family audience’, as he has been successfully doing with his movies so far. Hence, overdoes the emotional part and the movie as a result, fails to maintain the grip required of a suspense thriller.

The supposed-to-be stunning climax took too long to come, and was predictable for anyone who has seen at least a few old Malayalam movies. A crisper, shorter, better-scripted second half could have bettered the movie. Mohanlal, with his awesome acting (but bad physique) is the only saving grace. Go with low expectations, or go just to admire his superb acting style, and you may like the movie.

By the way, has there been any recent M’lal movie where there are absolutely no bar scenes/drinking scenes? Cant think of any!

It’s all a blur!

<The dialogs in Italic are mine>

Week 1. My office.

“Hey! New phone? Cool. Which model is it?”

“It’s 5800. Nokia’s new one. Got it the other day.”

“Oh Wow! Fine, but where’s the keypad?”

“Hah hah. There’s no keypad boss.. Its touch-screen, like the I-Phone.”

“My God! Its awesome. Lucky you!”

“Oh please, it’s nothing great.” <blush|proud|blush>

Week 2. My Office.

“Hey dude, give me your phone. Just need to make a call.”

“Fine.. Here take it”

” … “

“What on earth are you doing, digging the screen?!”

“Oops. Sorry dude. I usually don’t use these antique models. Just got used to  touch-screen, you see..!”

” You $#%^&#*@&(!%# ”

Week 3. Nokia Care Center.

“Hello Sir. How can I help you?”

“There’s some problem with the display of my phone. The screen gets blurred at times, when I unlock the phone.”

“Oh, ok. This is a screen defect. I guess the display panel has to be changed.”

“Yea? Whatever. I got warranty. Just do it.”

“The problem is, we are out of display panel stock right now.”

“Oh, so when is it expected?”

“We’ll have them next week. And I’m sure we’ll be able to fix the screen by next weekend.”

“Fine.. One week without my sweetheart. Its gonna be hard!”

Week 4. Nokia Care Center.

“My 5800! My baby! Its all healthy now, I believe?”

“Sir, actually, we havent received the stock yet. We will be able to solve the problem as soon as we get hold of it.”

“Yea? So I’ll take my mob with me and bring it back when you guys get the stock?”

“Okay, thats fine. Please call us up next week, I’m sure we would have it by then.”

Week 5. Home.

“Hello, is this the Nokia Care Center?”

“Yes sir, how can I help you?”

“Has the stock of 5800 display panel come yet?”

“One moment sir, let me check.. Oops, not yet. Please call us next week. We expect the next lot of deliveries next week”

Sigh!

Week 6. My flat.

“Hey, whats this on your mobile?! I can’t see a thing!”

“Nothing dude, that’s just a new screensaver. Yes, really.”

“Oh. I see. And how to disable this screensaver?”

“Er..Ahem.. Excuse me.. Slight headache..”

Week 7. Home.

“Hello. Nokia Care Center. How can I help you?”

“Hello, has the stock of Nokia 5800 disp..”

“Oh No sir, it hasn’t come yet. Please check up next week.”

“What the ..”

Beep.. Beep.. Beep..

Week 8. Nokia Care Center.

“Sir, how can I help you?”

“My phone. My display. Its totally blurred now. I just can’t use it. Just been a month since I bought it and look at it now! Pleeeaaasssee! Help meee! Do somethinggg”

“Oh, I’m sorry sir, the display panel has to be changed.”

“Yea? And I guess you are out of stock right now? And this will be solved within a week?”

“Yes sir. Thats right. We’ll have it done by next weekend.”

“Damn you bunch of &#(&#)@*$&())@&U$ “

Week 9. Office.

“Hey. Just gime your phone dude. Need to make a call”

“Hey, I thought you used only touch-screen ones. By the way, what happ to it?”

“There’s some problem dude. The display has crashed. And the service center sucks. Now let this be between us. Please”

Week 10.

Office: “Hey, my phone might be an antique, but its display works! Hah Hah.”

Flat: “Got any new screensavers, dude? Hah hah.”

Nokia Care Center: “Next week, sir. Next week, surely”

  • And the problem still persists. My darling phone. Such a new thing, and all messed up already! 😦
  • If any Nokia supporters are reading this by any chance, for Gods sake, please send the Nokia Care Creeps in my city some display panel stock, and save my phone’s life!!! Thank You!

Update:
Miracles do happen! The Care Center guys finally got some stock, and my phone display is back! Yipee! Now where are those people who made fun of my darling phone?! 😡